I’ve got a lot rattling around in my head these days, but very little time to sit down and blog about it. Mostly, I’m questioning my place in the world right now. Am I overextending myself? Am I trying to do too much? Am I just plain crazy??
I love taking pictures for other people, but is now the right time in my life to be pursuing it? The post-processing work especially takes up a lot of my time. And I can only work once the kids are asleep for the night, which means I stay up late and am then I feel like I’m not getting enough sleep.
Also, after reading on The Lactivist that the Mothers’ Milk Bank of Denver is nearly out of breast milk, I really want to start donating. But is it realistic for me to commit to that? I feel very fortunate to have a plentiful supply and would like to be able to share some of the “love” with other babies who really need it. I am currently going through the screening process. I told them I only have a manual pump and they said they loan out electric pumps to moms who don’t have one and want to donate! So that’s great news and incentive for me to pursue this, but will I have the time to pump every day? One of the requirements in collecting your milk is that you have a shower or a bath every day. LOL There are many days that I skip a shower because I just don’t have time. So now I would realistically have to find time to shower every day and find time to pump. Hmmm.
Parenting two children takes up a LOT of time and energy. It’s rewarding beyond belief to be a mom, but I feel like I need something more. I don’t want to give up everything that is important to me, because I feel like I need to have things that I enjoy doing and make me feel good about myself, other than being a mother. Not that being a mother doesn’t make me feel good about myself, but I have other interests besides raising two amazing kids. ;) Does that make sense?
I need balance. I need more hours in the day. I need a way to better manage my time.
I’m up for any thoughts on how I can do this – perhaps how you all manage your time – or if you think I’m crazy for thinking I can do it all. Thanks for “listening.” :)