You might have noticed (or maybe not) that I haven’t posted in over a week. Either way, I wanted to let everyone know that I’m around, just laying low. I’ve wanted to post on several occasions, but then just didn’t get to it for one reason or another.
Photo courtesy of sektordua
The past two weeks have been a major roller coaster for me. I’ve had ups and downs and many twists and turns. I’ve had more appointments than you can shake a stick at, including with my general practitioner, a cardiology nurse, an eye surgeon, an optometrist, a therapist, a reiki master and tonight, a massage therapist. There was a nearly a visit to the ER one night as well. Also, Jody has been out in California for work this week, so I’ve been focusing all of my energy on being as functional as possible.
The bad news is I’m still dealing with some issues (not as much crippling anxiety now – thank God!!), but I’ve been experiencing double vision off and on. Due to my eye history (including 4 surgeries for strabismus – eye muscles), this is not uncommon, but it’s not been fun either. And quite honestly, it makes it pretty easy to avoid the computer without feeling bad about it.
The good news is that the anxiety and panic attacks are happening less and less and when they do, it’s not nearly as disabling as it was previously. I have many more tools now (thanks to my friend the reiki master and psychic counselor) to get it under control.
So that’s where I’m at. I feel like I’m definitely making improvements (thanks largely to my reiki sessions which I hope to write about further another time), and the fog is slowly lifting, but I’m not out of the woods yet. I hope I can get this vision issue under control sooner rather than later. Your continued positive thoughts are most appreciated. Thank you. :)
Stumble it!
Rock and Roll Mama says:
So sorry you’re going through that, A. Health stuff isn’t fun. Sending healing thoughts your way.
February 20th, 2009 at 12:58 pm
Jamie @ BlondeMomBlog says:
Glad to hear you are feeling better. I don’t know anything about reiki, but that sounds interesting. Hang in there…sending you good thoughts!
February 20th, 2009 at 12:58 pm
Beth Terry, aka Fake Plastic Fish says:
Glad the fog is lifting. It’s incredible the number of people I know, including myself, who are having health issues right now. In fact, I’m just about to leave to visit a Chinese medicine doctor, cuz Kaiser is just not helping.
February 20th, 2009 at 1:00 pm
Jenny from Mommin' It Up! says:
Oh Amy, I am so sorry to hear you are dealing with this! HUGS! I am glad it is getting somewhat better but I will still be thinking about you & praying for you! When I was dealing with depression it felt very crippling. I hate that you are having to deal with ALL of this.
February 20th, 2009 at 1:01 pm
Karina says:
Vision stuff is so scary! I’m sorry to hear you’re wrestling with eye trouble. And anxiety. I’ve been in both boats. Sending you healing vibes. xox Take good care of yourself!
February 20th, 2009 at 1:05 pm
Condo Blues says:
I’m sorry you’re having such stressful health issues right now. I’m a reiki and I’m sending healing energy your way.
February 20th, 2009 at 1:08 pm
Dare says:
Hang in there Amy! Hope the fog continues to roll out for you and your path in the woods is a super short one.
February 20th, 2009 at 1:27 pm
Jumbleberry Jam says:
Been thinking of you! Glad to hear some of the symptoms are giving you a break, but I’ll keep sending good wishes for them to totally leave and your eyes to heal!
February 20th, 2009 at 1:37 pm
andi says:
glad to hear things are getting better. my husband does reiki. good stuff, that. sending energy your way :)
February 20th, 2009 at 2:05 pm
Sara*MamaGoesGreen* says:
Amy,
I pray you continue to heal and find the root of your health problems! Stepping away from the virtual world to deal with the physical and spiritual one is a good idea sometimes. You can come back with clarity and focus! ((hugs))
February 20th, 2009 at 2:12 pm
Summer says:
(HUGS)
February 20th, 2009 at 2:24 pm
Heather says:
Sending healing thoughts your way. :-(
February 20th, 2009 at 2:32 pm
lilbet says:
Hey, you’re supposed to be on Blog Rest. But, I’m sure your readers appreciate the update.
Hang in there.
Peace to you.
Bet
February 20th, 2009 at 2:46 pm
ayse says:
Oh Amy. I’m sorry to hear all this. I hope you get sooo much better soon. Keep good thoughts, try to be positive. You will be in my prayers!
February 20th, 2009 at 3:14 pm
Niecey says:
I pray you’ll heal physically end emotionally. My mum had eye troubles and had double vision for a while and was severely disoriented by it.
You are in my prayers.
love and peace
xx
February 20th, 2009 at 3:52 pm
Amber says:
Sending positive vibes. I’m glad that you updated us, I was thinking about you yesterday and wondering how you were. I’m also curious to hear about reiki, and how it’s working for you.
February 20th, 2009 at 4:10 pm
Half Pint Pixie says:
Good to hear from you, rest up and we’re all thinking of you!
February 20th, 2009 at 4:57 pm
Green Me Alison says:
I am impressed that you still write so eloquently from the midst of a fog and I really appreciate your willingness to be upfront and frank about your situation with your readers! That takes courage in-itself!
February 20th, 2009 at 10:16 pm
Jenni at My Web of Life says:
I’ve wondered where you were…
I hope you can sense the virtual hug and positive vibes that are heading your way from Canada right now (I’m actually originally a Colorado girl- I hail from Brighton).
As much as we all would love to be updated, please take care of yourself and family as much as possible right now. The blogging world can wait. :-)
February 20th, 2009 at 10:16 pm
Leslie @LaMamaNaturale says:
Hi Amy,
What courage you have to share all of this anxiety stress you’re dealing with. I’m happy to hear that things are on the up and up. Hopefully, it’s upward and onward from here and you’ll be back to you in no time. It’s smart that you’re taking time away and dealing with this straight in the nose. Your health is important and dealing with it now rather than later pays off! Stay strong. Stay positive. It will all work itself out eventually. ((hugs)) :)
February 20th, 2009 at 11:20 pm
Monica @ Healthy Green Moms says:
Hey! Thanks for your update, I was thinking about you. I hope you get the vision sorted out soon :)
Glad to hear the fog is lifting and that you are being good to yourself and have some helpful tools, my own kit got pretty huge!
Warm wishes..
February 20th, 2009 at 11:21 pm
Isil says:
Great to hear good news from you.I have been thinking about you as I was following you on FB.
Take everything easy and rest.
Warmly,
February 21st, 2009 at 3:43 am
Megan@SortaCrunchy says:
Thanks for the update, although of course you don’t owe us any explanations!
So glad to hear positive forward motion is happening.
February 21st, 2009 at 7:57 am
deb says:
Try not to be too hard on yourself. Sending positive thoughts and energy…
February 21st, 2009 at 8:29 am
Adventures In Babywearing says:
Amy, I’ve been thinking about you. I am hoping you are ok- I have had a hard time of it recently but it’s nothing like what you have experienced.
xoxo
Steph
February 21st, 2009 at 8:54 am
Christina says:
hope things get better for you soon!!
February 21st, 2009 at 9:38 am
cathy says:
Scary stuff! Take all of the time that you need. You being healthy in body and mind is all that is important!
February 21st, 2009 at 10:07 am
Laura says:
Take as much time as you need Amy! I am so glad to hear that your anxiety/panic attacks are lessening, and I am sending you all of my warmest wishes! I also hope that your eye troubles are not too serious – take a nice long rest from that computer!
February 21st, 2009 at 11:38 am
Deb - Mom of 3 Girls says:
Oh I’m so sorry, Amy. I hope that things continue to improve and whenever you are able to post, we’ll all be here. :)
February 21st, 2009 at 1:31 pm
Candace says:
Glad to hear you are feeling better with the anxiety but sorry to hear about the eye troubles!
You know the world won’t end if you are off the computer for a bit and we’ll all still be hear reading you when you come back.
But if you want guest posters, please let me know–I’d be happy to help you out any time at all.
February 21st, 2009 at 1:45 pm
Candace says:
Ummm… hear = here.
We’ll be here to hear you ;)
February 21st, 2009 at 1:45 pm
Maggie says:
I’m sorry you’re going through so much right now. I hope things get better for you soon.
February 21st, 2009 at 3:03 pm
BerryBird says:
I’m glad you’re feeling a little bit better, Amy, and glad for the update. Take your time healing those eyes — don’t rush back too soon. I hope you do write about the reiki eventually, though. My Mom learned how to do it years ago, and she gave me a treatment once when I was experiencing low-grade fever and an unexplained full-body rash. I didn’t know what to expect and felt a little giggly at first, but it was HUGELY relaxing and I think it did help.
February 21st, 2009 at 4:27 pm
Biz says:
Big hugs coming your way! Hope things are going in the right direction for you now!
February 21st, 2009 at 9:23 pm
phyllis says:
keeping you in my prayers. hang in there…
February 21st, 2009 at 10:34 pm
Elizabeth says:
Hello. I went through the same thing in 2002. I didn’t want to go on meds. I eventually went on an anti-depressant and it changed my life for the better. I wish I would have been on it years ago, because I feel like I missed out on so much due to my “mood.” I always thought that because it was my mind, if I was just a bit stronger I could control it and get better. Then, I realized that if I had another chronic condition that required meds (diabetes, high blood pressure, heart palpatation, etc), I would take the meds and made the lifestyle changes to improve the condition. I have done that with my anxiety. I take the meds and they have brought me down to earth enough to consider and implement such changes as a lower stress job, saying no, and accepting myself. I am a nature girl and I am here to say pharmaceticals are not of the devil.
February 22nd, 2009 at 7:31 am
erica says:
I’ve been praying for you… I hope things get sorted out quickly!
February 23rd, 2009 at 11:43 am
chelle says:
Hope you are feeling better soon. nothing sucks more than being off your game :(
February 23rd, 2009 at 2:58 pm
Brenna says:
Sending you lots of healing thoughts.
February 23rd, 2009 at 4:31 pm
Sarah @ BecomingSarah.com says:
I hope you’re on the mend sooner than later! Take care of yourself!
February 25th, 2009 at 6:38 pm
Liesl says:
I’m so sorry to hear of all your struggles. Having health problems is always frustrating, but the one thing aout it is that when we are well again we really realized that old saying “as long as I have my health” is.
Sending healing vibes your way. I’m hoping for a smooth and speedy recovery for you!
February 26th, 2009 at 6:36 am
Sarah says:
I am sorry you are having such a difficult time right now…I will keep you in my thoughts and send wishes of a full recovery your way. Hope you are back full force soon.
February 26th, 2009 at 11:19 pm
casual friday everyday says:
I’ve been thinking of you. Still am. I’m here if you need me.
Nell
March 2nd, 2009 at 11:14 pm
Ali says:
Long time reader, first time poster. I just wanted to let you know that your readers are thinking about you, and hoping you are well. I hope you are just taking a nice, well deserved break from blogging, and that your health issues are resolving themselves. All the best to you and your family. (And if you’ll accept hugs from a stranger from New Zealand *hugs* to you as well.)
March 3rd, 2009 at 1:38 pm
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