Grieving the loss of my sister Carrie


  1. Amy,

    My heart goes out to you and your family, again and again. Over and over again. You’re so right. Losing Carrie doesn’t seem real, and it absolutely wasn’t supposed to happen this way.


  2. so very sorry for this incomprehensible loss. a wise woman once told me that “grief shatters and scatters.” wishing you strength as you try to pick up the pieces.

  3. Amy,

    My heart hurts for you. I wish there was something I could write or do that would help. Before my mom died, I hadn’t lost anyone close to me in death. I don’t think it matters who it is- if you love them, it is a loss that changes you and I don’t think that hole in your heart heals completely. I’ve realized it’s okay that it won’t. That spot in your heart will never be the same, but it will always remind you of Carrie and the relationship you had. In time, it won’t be as raw- as painful as it is now. But it is an unimaginable loss.

    A few weeks after my mom passed away, I came across a poem on another blog- a blogger had lost her battle with cancer after several years and one of her readers posted this poem that just touched me. I sat and cried for half an hour, but it made me feel better. I will bring it for you tomorrow and you can read it when and if you like at some point. I think the only thing I can say is do what you need to do to just get through the day right now- we are all here for you, and love you.

  4. Amy,

    I am so very sorry to hear about your sister.

    Hugs and prayers for you and your family.


  5. Amy,

    I know I was not close to Carrie, I graduated with Paul, and for some reason Carrie’s untimely death has hit me hard. I try to process why, and the only logical reason I have come up with is my sister and Carrie are the same age and graduated from Clawson together. Everytime you post something I HAVE to read it.

    Please know you and your whole family is in my thoughts and prayers daily. Just the thought of something happening brings tears to my eyes.

  6. Many thoughts keep flowing from me to you, Amy. Keep playing in the leaves with your children to let your heart heal for a few moments a day.

  7. Amy,
    Beautifully written my friend. Your sisters legacy is truly and inspiration to us all. I am so sorry for this shocking life change. I have no answers, no advice…I know my world would cease to exist as it had too. Playing in the leaves with the kids sounds like something we ALL should do more often…

    Peace and hugs to you,

  8. I lost my sis 3 years ago. I wish there was something I could say to make it better, but there isn’t. If you ever want to talk to someone who has been there, email or DM me. I’d be glad to listen.

  9. amy, i can’t conceive of your loss. i am close with my own sister. there is something amazing between us girls. you were lucky to have each other and my heart breaks for you and your family. there are no words but i hope you can feel the love across the miles.

  10. What a beautiful tribute to your sister! My heart aches for you. I will keep you and your family in my prayers. I was not blessed with a sister, but I cannot help but tear up reading this and thinking of my daughter’s! How truly blessed you were to have her. Take care.

  11. I wish I could express just how deeply I feel for your loss and how much I want for your pain to ease. Please know I hold you in my thoughts constantly and am sending you vibes of love and peace and strength. Hugs to you, sweet friend!

  12. i’m so glad to read these comments in support of you, amy. and i hadn’t read the beautiful blog post your fiend wrote on oct 27 (which you linked to above). it’s so good to see that you have some wonderful people in colorado to support you and your family at this time. my thoughts and prayers are still with you and your family and parents.

    ~ cousin becky

  13. Beautifully written as only you can. Am aching for your loss.

  14. Amy – What a beautiful post. My heart is heavy for you and your family and what you all have had to endure. My beloved aunt died suddenly in a motorcycle accident over 10 years ago. I had spent my young life trying to be just like her and I was in so many ways. I also had been given the responsibility of telling my mom that her youngest sister was gone. Just this year, I lost my dad and my grandmother and 2 friends. A friend of mine lost her sister last year. There has been a lot of grief and loss in my life.

    My thoughts for you – the road to healing is a long, painful one, but it will get better. You will heal and the severity of pain will subside, but know your heart will always have an ache for her loss. Take the grieving one day at a time, heal as much as you can and always take your sister everywhere you go. She will always be next to you.

    Know I am here for you and please let me know if you need anything. Even just a hug or an ear when you need to talk about your dear sister Carrie.

  15. I am sobbing reading this. I am so sorry for your loss. 3 years ago my cousin who was like brother to me was killed in a motorcycle accident. There is nothing as painful and tragic as such an unexpected and sudden loss. The only thing that helps is time. I just wanted you to know I feel your pain, and am saying a prayer for you and your family.

  16. Oh, Amy. I just wish I could hug you. If there is a way I can see you when you go to Michigan, or even if I could go to pay my respects, please let me know how we could work that out.

    Much love to you,

  17. Amy – My heart aches for your loss and I cannot imagine what it must be like to lose a loved one so young and unexpected. This type of loss is the most difficult to overcome.

    Carrie was a wonderful woman who really made a difference. I’m so happy that you were close with your dear sister and that you have many happy memories to draw upon.

    How are your parents holding up? How do you answer the questions your children must have about their aunt?

    My heart swells with compassion for you, Amy, and I hope you feel some peace after the memorial service in Michigan.

  18. I’m so sorry for your loss. I continue to keep you, and your family, in my thoughts.

  19. Hugs to you. It is so tragic to lose someone you love.

  20. I am so sorry for your loss. Thinking of you and your family, may you draw strength and love from one another x

  21. I’m still unsure of what to say A. Each Monday since, I’ve thought of her and each Tuesday since, I’ve thought of you. I don’t know that pain should be washed away because then it would mean that we don’t feel deeply. However, right now, I wish that you weren’t hurting *so* much and that you didn’t lose so much. I will always remember Carrie as sarcastic, witty and super intelligent with a beautiful smile. I am continuing to send you hugs across the miles and love you much.

  22. You and your family are in my thoughts Amy. The enormous range of emotions reflect the love you shared with your sister. Maybe the surreality will never go away. Losing a sibling is so hard at a young age. It did all but kill one of my closest friends at 11 when she lost her older 13 yo brother. Spend some time with your lovely children. Just play, run through leaves, pack food and go backpacking with the kids. Cherish your moments with them because they can help you heal. :) Children are so intuitive.
    Love and hugs to you and your family.

  23. Amy,

    Reading your blog and feeling your loss makes me grieve with you. Please know that you and your family are in my thoughts and prayers.

  24. What a beautiful tribute to your sister and your relationship.

    The best thing you can do now is FEEL and take the time you need. It sounds like you are doing that.

    Again, my deepest condolences. I knew your sister had to be someone very special.

    Please take care of yourself, Amy.

  25. This is a beautiful tribute to your sister. May her memory be for a blessing. You’re in my thoughts and prayers.

  26. That picture of the four of you makes me weep, sob from my heart. What a terrible loss for you, your family and the world. She sounds like the most amazing person. Oh God, I hurt for you.


  27. I am so sorry to hear of your loss. We lost my brother this past August 2010 at the age of 34. I never could have anticipated how painful grief really is. Sending you good thoughts…

  28. hey

    i used to work with your sister at CU, we were a team at Kitteredge, where is she buried? i would love to go lay some flowers.

  29. Hi Dan,
    Can you please email me at crunchydomesticgoddess AT gmail DOT com and I will let you know? Or leave me your email address here.
    Thank you.

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